Sunday, November 16, 2025

Quickly Draw! A Substitution Class Surprise

Today, I found myself in a grade 2 classroom as a substitute teacher — that delightful, unpredictable space where you walk in because your PE teacher colleagues are manning interschool matches and only a room full of curious faces waiting to see what happens next.

I began with something simple, spontaneous, and full of laughter — an activity I call “Quickly Draw!”

I told the children, “When I say a word, you have ten seconds to draw it. No thinking too much, no erasing, no worrying about how it looks — just draw quickly!”

The first prompt was “A Cat.” Within seconds, pencils started flying. Some cats looked sleepy, some were running, and a few had suspiciously long tails. We moved to “A Rocket,” “A Raincloud,” and finally, “A Monster Eating Ice Cream.”That one caused an explosion of giggles.



What I love about “Quickly Draw” is how it opens a window into each child’s imagination. When there isn’t time to overthink or perfect, creativity shines through most honestly. The drawings are raw, funny, expressive — and deeply personal.

If I had stayed longer, we could have turned those drawings into stories, poems, or even mini plays. But even in this short time, the exercise reminded me that sometimes all it takes to spark imagination is a piece of paper, a pencil, and ten seconds of freedom.

Try it the next time you have a class and a few unplanned minutes. You might just discover a classroom full of artists in disguise.

Tuesday, November 11, 2025

ಆತ್ಮೀಯ ವಾಸುಗೆ ಒಂದು ನುಡಿ ನಮನ

 

ನಮ್ಮಲ್ಲಿ ಬಹುತೇಕರು ಬೇರೆಯವರು ಹಾಕಿಕೊಟ್ಟ ದಾರಿಯಲ್ಲೇ ನಡೆಯುತ್ತೇವೆ. ಸಮಾಜ ನಮ್ಮಿಂದ ಏನನ್ನು ನಿರೀಕ್ಷಿಸುತ್ತದೆಯೋ ಅದನ್ನೇ ಮಾಡುತ್ತಾ, ಒಂದು ಸುಖದ ಬದುಕಿನ ಭಾಗವಾಗಿರುತ್ತೇವೆ. ಆದರೆ, ನಮ್ಮ ನಡುವೆ ಕೆಲವರು ಬೇರೆಯವರಿಗಾಗಿ ಹೊಸ ದಾರಿಗಳನ್ನು ಸೃಷ್ಟಿಸಿ, ಅದರಲ್ಲೇ ಬದುಕುತ್ತಾರೆ. ಶ್ರೀನಿವಾಸ್ ಪಿ.—ನಮ್ಮ ಪ್ರೀತಿಯ ವಾಸು ಪಿ., ಅಥವಾ “ಮಣ್ಣು ವಾಸು”—ಅಂತಹ ಒಬ್ಬ ಅಪರೂಪದ ಮನುಷ್ಯ. ನಾವು ಅವರನ್ನು ಬಹಳ ಬೇಗ ಕಳೆದುಕೊಂಡೆವು, ಸೆಪ್ಟೆಂಬರ್ 13, 2025 ರಂದು ನಮ್ಮನ್ನೆಲ್ಲ ಬಿಟ್ಟು ಹೋದರು. ಹೇಳಲಾಗದಂತಹ, ಆಳವಾದ ನೋವನ್ನು ಹಿಂದೆ ಬಿಟ್ಟಿದ್ದಾರೆ.

ವಾಸು ಬಗ್ಗೆ ನಾನು ಏನನ್ನು ಹೇಳಲಿ? ವೈಯಕ್ತಿಕವಾಗಿ, ಅವರ ಜೊತೆಗಿನ ಒಡನಾಟವೇ ಒಂದು ಪರಮ ಸುಖವಾಗಿತ್ತು. ಅವರು ಹಾಡುತ್ತಿದ್ದರು, ಕಥೆ ಹೇಳುತ್ತಿದ್ದರು, ತಮ್ಮ ತಮಾಷೆಗಳಿಂದ ನಮ್ಮನ್ನು ನಗಿಸುತ್ತಿದ್ದರು, ನಮ್ಮ ಕಣ್ಣೀರು ಒರೆಸುತ್ತಿದ್ದರು, ತಿಂಡಿ ತರುತ್ತಿದ್ದರು, ಮತ್ತು ನಮ್ಮ ದುಃಖಗಳನ್ನು ಆಲಿಸುತ್ತಿದ್ದರು. ಅವರು ನಿಜವಾಗಿಯೂ ನನ್ನ ಅಣ್ಣನಾಗಿದ್ದರು. ನನಗೆ ಏನೇ ಸಂಕಟ ಬಂದರೂ ಅವರ ಬಳಿ ಹೋಗಬಹುದಿತ್ತು. ಇದು ಸತ್ಯ. ಕುಟುಂಬದಲ್ಲಿ ನಾನು ಭಯವಿಲ್ಲದೆ ನನ್ನ ಮನಸ್ಸಿನ ಮಾತನ್ನು ಹೇಳಿಕೊಳ್ಳಬಹುದಾದ ಒಬ್ಬ ವ್ಯಕ್ತಿ ಇದ್ದರೆ, ಅದು ವಾಸು ಮಾತ್ರ ಎಂದು ನನಗೆ ತುಂಬಾ ಆಳವಾಗಿ ತಿಳಿದಿತ್ತು.

ಒಮ್ಮೆ ನನಗೆ ಏಳು ವರ್ಷವಿದ್ದಾಗ, ನಾನು ಬಿದ್ದು ಮೊಣಕಾಲಿಗೆ ಗಾಯ ಮಾಡಿಕೊಂಡಿದ್ದೆ. ರಕ್ತ ಸುರಿಯುತ್ತಾ ಅಳುತ್ತಿದ್ದೆ. ಆಗ ಅವರು ತಮಾಷೆಯ ಹಾಡು ಹಾಡುತ್ತಾ, ಕುಣಿದು ತೋರಿಸಿ ನನ್ನನ್ನು ಅಷ್ಟೊಂದು ನಗುವಂತೆ ಮಾಡಿದರು, ನನಗೆ ನೋವನ್ನೇ ಮರೆತುಹೋಯಿತು. ಅದುವೇ ವಾಸು—ಅವರು ಜನರ ಬಳಿ ಅವರವರ ಮಟ್ಟಕ್ಕೆ ಇಳಿದು ತಲುಪುತ್ತಿದ್ದರು. ಅವರಲ್ಲಿ ಕಪಟವಿರಲಿಲ್ಲ, ಬರೀ ಸಹಜವಾದ ದಯೆಯಿತ್ತು. ಮಾತುಗಾರಿಕೆಯಲ್ಲಿ ಒಂದು ವಿಶೇಷ ಶೈಲಿ ಇತ್ತು. ಜೀವನ, ಪ್ರೀತಿ ಮತ್ತು ಕೆಲಸದ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ನಾನು ಆಗಾಗ ಅವರಿಗೆ ಮನಬಿಚ್ಚಿ ಹೇಳುತ್ತಿದ್ದೆ.

ನಾನು ಬೆಳೆಯೋವಾಗ, ಅವ್ರು ನನಗೆ ತುಂಬಾ ಸ್ಪೂರ್ತಿ. ಈ ಸಾಮಾನ್ಯ ಜಗತ್ತಿನಲ್ಲಿ ಬೇರೆಯವ್ರ ಕಣ್ಣಿಗೆ ಕಾಣದ ವಿಷಯಗಳನ್ನ ಅವರು ನೋಡೋರು. ಸಮಾಜದಲ್ಲಿ ಹಿಂದೆ ಬಿದ್ದೋರ ಕಷ್ಟ, ನೋವು ಅವ್ರಿಗೆ ಗೊತ್ತಿತ್ತು—ಯಾರಲ್ಲೂ ಕಾಣದ ಒಂದು ಒಳ್ಳೆ ಮನಸ್ಸು (ಸಹಜ ಕರುಣೆ) ಅವ್ರಲ್ಲಿತ್ತು. ಅವ್ರಲ್ಲಿ ಒಂದು ಸೈಲೆಂಟ್ ಧೈರ್ಯ ಇತ್ತು, ಅದು ನಂಗೆ ಗೊತ್ತಿರೋ ಯಾವ್ರಲ್ಲೂ ಇರ್ಲಿಲ್ಲ. ಅವರು ಬೇರೆಯವ್ರ ಮಾತಿಗೆ ತಲೆ ಕೆಡಿಸಿಕೊಳ್ಳದೆ, ತಮ್ಮದೇ ದಾರೀಲಿ, ತಮ್ಮ ಪಾಡಿಗೆ ತಾವು ನಡೆದ್ರು.


ಕನ್ನಡ ಹಾಗೂ ಗಣಿತ ವಿದ್ವಾಂಸರ ಎರಡನೆಯ ಮಗನಾಗಿದ್ದ ವಾಸು, ಸುಖವಾದ ಡೆಸ್ಕ್ ಜಾಬ್ ಬಿಟ್ಟು, ಕಷ್ಟದ, ಸೇವೆಯ ಜೀವನವನ್ನು ಹೇಗೆ ತಾನೇ ಆರಿಸಿಕೊಳ್ಳೋಕೆ ಸಾಧ್ಯ? ವಾಸುವಿಗೆ ತನ್ನ ಜೀವನದ ಧ್ಯೇಯ ಹಾಗೂ ಸತ್ಯ ಮೊದಲೇ ತಿಳಿದಿತ್ತು - ವೈಯಕ್ತಿಕ ಸುಖ ಇತತರ ಒಳಿತಿನಿಂದ ಬರುವುದೆಂದು. ಇದು ಅವನ ಜೀವನದ ಉದ್ದೇಶವಾಗಿ ಉಳಿಯಿತು.

ಅವರು ತಮ್ಮ ಪ್ರಯಾಣವನ್ನು FEDINA ಜೊತೆ ಪ್ರಾರಂಭಿಸಿದರು. ಅಂಚಿನಲ್ಲಿರುವ ಸಮುದಾಯಗಳ ಜೊತೆ ಕೆಲಸ ಮಾಡಿದರು—ಮನೆಗೆಲಸದವರು, ಪೌರಕಾರ್ಮಿಕರು, ಗಾರ್ಮೆಂಟ್ ಕಾರ್ಮಿಕರು, ಕಟ್ಟಡ ಕಾರ್ಮಿಕರು ಮತ್ತು ರೈತರು. FEDINA ICRA (Institute for Cultural Research and Action) ಜೊತೆ ಕಾರ್ಯಕ್ರಮಗಳನ್ನು ವಿಲೀನಗೊಳಿಸಿದಾಗ, ರೈತರ ಮೇಲಿನ ಅವರ ಆಸಕ್ತಿ ಇನ್ನಷ್ಟು ತೀವ್ರವಾಯಿತು. ಈ ಸಮಯದಲ್ಲಿ, ಅವರು ಸೆನೆಗಲ್‌ಗೆ ಪ್ರಯಾಣಿಸಿ, ಸಹಾರಾ ಮರಳುಗಾಡಿನಲ್ಲಿ ನಡೆದು, ಹಳ್ಳಿಗರು ಮತ್ತು ರೈತರು ನೀರು ಮತ್ತು ಮಣ್ಣಿನ ಮೇಲೆ ಹೇಗೆ ಅವಲಂಬಿತರಾಗಿದ್ದಾರೆ—ಮತ್ತು ಅವರ ಬದುಕು ಪ್ರಕೃತಿಯೊಂದಿಗೆ ಹೇಗೆ ಏರುಪೇರಾಗುತ್ತದೆ ಎಂಬುದನ್ನು ಅಧ್ಯಯನ ಮಾಡಿದರು.

ಬಹುಶಃ, ಈ ಪ್ರಯಾಣದಲ್ಲಿ, ವಾಸುವಿಗೆ ಮಣ್ಣು ಎನ್ನುವ ವಿಷಯದ ಮೇಲೆ ಆಸಕ್ತಿ ಹುಟ್ಟಿತು. ಮುಂದಿನ ಎರಡು ದಶಕಗಳಲ್ಲಿ, ಅವರು ಕರ್ನಾಟಕದ ಉದ್ದಗಲಕ್ಕೂ ಸಂಚರಿಸಿದರು. ಒಮ್ಮೆ, ನಾನು ತಮಾಷೆ ಮಾಡಿದೆ, "ವಾಸು, ನೀನು ಕರ್ನಾಟಕದಲ್ಲಿ ಭೇಟಿ ನೀಡದ ಒಂದು ಹಳ್ಳಿಯಾದರೂ ಇದೆಯೇ?" - ವಾಸು ನಕ್ಕರು, "ಬಹುಶಃ ಇಲ್ಲ, ಕಂದ" ಎಂದರು. ಇದು ಅವನ ಸ್ವಯಂ ನಿರ್ದೇಶಿತ ದಾರಿಯಾಗಿತ್ತು. ಹಲವಾರು ವರ್ಷಗಳು ಅವನ ಬೆನ್ನ ಹಿಂದೆ ಯಾವ ಸಂಸ್ಥೆಯ ಬೆಂಬಲವಿರಲಿಲ್ಲ. ಇಲ್ಲಿದೆ ವಾಸುವಿನ ಆ ಧೈರ್ಯದ ಸಾರ.

ಅವರು ಹಿಡಿದ ದಾರಿ ಸುಲಭದ ದಾರಿಯಾಗಿರಲಿಲ್ಲ. ಸಾವಯವ ಕೃಷಿಯ ಮಹತ್ವವನ್ನು ಕೆಲವೇ ಜನ ಅರ್ಥಮಾಡಿಕೊಂಡಿದ್ದ ಸಮಯದಲ್ಲಿ, ಅದನ್ನು ಸಂಶೋಧಿಸಿ, ಮತ್ತು ಅದರ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ಪ್ರಚಾರ ಮಾಡುವುದು, ಹಳ್ಳಿ ಹಳ್ಳಿಗಳಿಗೆ - ಹಣಕಾಸಿನ ಬೆಂಬಲವಿಲ್ಲದ ಸಮಯದಲ್ಲಿ ಟೆಂಪೋ, ಬಸ್ಸು, ಬಿಕ್ಕುಗಳಲ್ಲಿ ರಾತ್ರಿ ಹಗಲು ಇಲ್ಲದಂತೆ ಹೋಗುವುದು, ಪಾಠ ಮಾಡುವುದು, ಮೈಲಿಗಳು ನಡೆಯುವುದು, ಇದು ಸಾಮಾನ್ಯದವರು ಮಾಡಲಾಗದ ಕೆಲಸ. ದೈವ ನಿಮ್ಮನ್ನು ಆಯ್ಕೆ ಮಾಡಿದ್ದರೆ ಮಾತ್ರ ಸಾಧ್ಯ.

ತಂತ್ರಜ್ಞಾನದೊಂದಿಗೆ ವೇಗವಾಗಿ ಮುನ್ನುಗ್ಗುತ್ತಿದ್ದ ಜಗತ್ತಿನಲ್ಲಿ, ವಾಸು ಬಹುಶಃ ಮುರಿದಿದ್ದ ಒಂದು ಲ್ಯಾಪ್‌ಟಾಪ್ ಮತ್ತು ಹಳೆಯ ನೋಕಿಯಾ ಜೊತೆ ರಾತ್ರಿ ಇಡೀ ಕೆಲಸ ಮಾಡುತ್ತಿದ್ದರು. ಹಾಡುಗಳನ್ನು ಬರೆಯುತ್ತಿದ್ದರು, ಚಾರ್ಟ್‌ಗಳನ್ನು ಕಲ್ಪಿಸಿ ತಯಾರಿಸುತ್ತಿದ್ದರು, ಪವರ್ ಪಾಯಿಂಟ್ ಪ್ರೆಸೆಂಟೇಶನ್‌ಗಳನ್ನು ಮಾಡುತ್ತಿದ್ದರು. ನನ್ನ ತಂಗಿ ಚಿತ್ರಾ, ಅವರ ಅಣ್ಣನ ಮಗ ಭಾರ್ಗವ ಮತ್ತು ನಮಗೆ ಈ ಪ್ರೆಸೆಂಟೇಶನ್‌ಗಳನ್ನು ತೋರಿಸುತ್ತಿದ್ದರು. ಸುಮಾರು 50ಕ್ಕೂ ಹೆಚ್ಚು ಸ್ಲೈಡ್‌ಗಳಿರುತ್ತಿದ್ದವು. ಬ್ಲಾಗಿಂಗ್ ಕೂಡ ಕಲಿತರು - ಇವೆಲ್ಲವನ್ನೂ ಒಂದೊಂದು ಕೀಲಿಗಳನ್ನು ನಿಧಾನವಾಗಿ ಒತ್ತುತ್ತಾ, ಏಕ ಮನಸ್ಸಿನ ಗಮನದಿಂದ ಮಾಡುತ್ತಿದ್ದರು.

ಪ್ರಪಂಚದಲ್ಲಿ ಫೇಸ್‌ಬುಕ್‌ನ ಕ್ರಾಂತಿ ಶುರುವಾದಾಗ, ಮಣ್ಣಿನ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ದಿನನಿತ್ಯ ಪೋಸ್ಟ್‌ಗಳನ್ನು ಮಾಡಿ - ಅಲ್ಲಿಂದ ಇತರೆ ಕೃಷಿಕರ ಜೊತೆ ಸಂಪರ್ಕ ಬೆಳೆಸಿದರು. ಒಂದು ರೀತಿಯ ಸಾವಯವ ಭೂಮಿಯ ವಿಚಾರದಲ್ಲಿ - ನಾಯಕರಾದರು. ಅವರ ಜೋಳಿಗೆ ಚೀಲದಲ್ಲಿ, ಮಣ್ಣಿನ ರಕಮುಗಳನ್ನು (ಮಾದರಿಗಳನ್ನು) ಪತ್ರಿಕೆ ಪೇಪರ್‌ಗಳ ಪೊಟ್ಟಣಗಳಲ್ಲಿ ತರುತ್ತಿದ್ದರು. "ಮಣ್ಣು" ಎಂದರೆ ಸಾಕು, ಒಂದು ಲೆಕ್ಚರ್ ಸಿಗುತ್ತಿತ್ತು.

ಆಗಾಗ್ಗೆ ನಮ್ಮೆಲ್ಲರಿಗೂ ವಾಸುವಿನ ಆರೋಗ್ಯದ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ಚಿಂತೆ ಇತ್ತು. 55 ದಾಟಿದ ನಂತರ, "ಮೆಡಿಕಲ್ ಚೆಕ್ ಅಪ್ ಮಾಡಿಸಿಕೊ, ವಾಸು" ಎಂದೆ. "ನಾನು ನನ್ನ ಹಾಡುಗಳನ್ನು, ಚಾರ್ಟ್‌ಗಳನ್ನು, ಕೆಲಸವನ್ನು ಹಂಚಿಕೊಂಡಿದ್ದೇನೆ, - ಇದಕ್ಕಲ್ಲಾ ಬೆಲೆ ಇದೆಯೇ?" ಎಂದು ಕೇಳಿದರು. "ಇದೆ" ಎಂದೆ. "ರೈತರಿಗೆ ಸಹಾಯ ಮಾಡುವುದು ಮುಖ್ಯವೇ?", "ಮುಖ್ಯ" ಎಂದೆ. "ಹಾಗಾದರೆ, ಸಾವಯವ ಕೃಷಿಯನ್ನು ಮಾಡುತ್ತಿರುವ ಒಬ್ಬ ರೈತ ಇರುವವರೆಗೂ, ನಾನು ಮುಂದುವರಿಯಬೇಕು" ಎಂದು ಮಾತು ಬದಲಾಯಿಸಿದರು. ರೈತರು ಬದುಕಿರುವವರೆಗೂ, ಅವರಿಗೆ ಕೆಲಸವಿತ್ತು.

ಅವ್ರು ಎಲ್ಲರನ್ನೂ ಬುದ್ಧಿ, ತಾಯಿ, ಗುರು ಅಂತ ಪ್ರೀತಿಯಿಂದ ಮಾತಾಡ್ತಿದ್ರು—ಯಾವಾಗಲೂ ಏನಾದ್ರೂ ಕಲೀಬೇಕು ಅಂತ ಇರ್ತಿದ್ರು. ಪ್ರತಿ ಹುಟ್ಟುಹಬ್ಬ ಅಥವಾ ಯಾವುದಾದರೂ ಸ್ಪೆಷಲ್ ದಿನ ಇದ್ರೆ, ಬೆಳಿಗ್ಗೆ 5 ಗಂಟೆಗೆ ನಂಗೆ ತುಂಬಾ ಪ್ರೀತಿ ಮತ್ತೆ ಹೊಗಳಿಕೆಯ ಮೆಸೇಜ್ ಕಳಿಸ್ತಿದ್ರು.

ವಾಸು ಅವ್ರಿಗೆ ಒಂದು ಸಹಜ ಹಾಸ್ಯ ಪ್ರಜ್ಞೆ ಇತ್ತು, ಬದುಕಿನ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ತುಂಬ ಖುಷಿ ಇತ್ತು. ಅವ್ರ ಸುತ್ತಮುತ್ತ ಇರೋ ಎಲ್ಲರೂ ಚೆನ್ನಾಗಿ, ಖುಷಿಯಾಗಿ ಇರಬೇಕು ಅಂತ ಅವ್ರ ಆಸೆ. ನಮ್ ತಂದೆ ಹಾಸ್ಪಿಟಲ್‌ನಲ್ಲಿದ್ದಾಗ, ಮಧ್ಯಾಹ್ನ ಹೋಗಿ ಅವರ ಜೊತೆ ಟೈಮ್ ಕಳೀತಾ ಇದ್ರು—ಹಾಡು ಹೇಳ್ತಾ, ನಗಿಸ್ತಾ, ಸುಮ್ನೆ ಖುಷಿಯಾಗಿ ಇರೋ ಮೂಲಕ ಸಾಂತ್ವನ ಕೊಡ್ತಿದ್ರು.

ಹಾಸ್ಯವೇ ಅವ್ರ ಜೀವಶಕ್ತಿ. ಎಷ್ಟೇ ಕಷ್ಟ ಬಂದರೂ, ನಗ್ತಾ, ಲೈಟ್ ಆಗಿ ಅದನ್ನೆಲ್ಲ ಎದುರಿಸ್ತಿದ್ರು.

ಅವರ ಮಗ ನಂದನ್ ಅಂದ್ರೆ ಅವ್ರಿಗೆ ತುಂಬಾ ಹೆಮ್ಮೆ, ಅವರೇ ಅವ್ರ ಜೀವಶಕ್ತಿ. ಅವರು ತಮ್ಮ ಮಗ ಮಾಡಿದ ಮ್ಯೂಸಿಕ್ ಅನ್ನ ಭೇಟಿ ಮಾಡಿದ ಎಲ್ಲರ ಜೊತೆ ಖುಷಿಯಿಂದ ಹಂಚಿಕೊಳ್ತಿದ್ರು.

ಆದ್ರೆ ವಾಸು ತಮ್ಮ ಈ ಜರ್ನಿಯಲ್ಲಿ ಒಬ್ಬರೇ ಇರ್ಲಿಲ್ಲ. "ಮಣ್ಣು ವಾಸು" ಹಿಂದೆ ತುಂಬ ಪ್ರೀತಿ ಇತ್ತು—ಅವರ ಅಪ್ಪ-ಅಮ್ಮ, ಶ್ರೀಮತಿ ಜಿ.ಪಿ. ಲಕ್ಷ್ಮೀದೇವಿ ಮತ್ತು ಪ್ರೊ. ಜಿ. ಪದ್ಮನಾಭಯ್ಯ, ಅವ್ರು ಯಾವಾಗಲೂ ಅವ್ರ ಹೆಗಲಿಗೆ ಕೈ ಹಾಕಿ ನಿಂತಿದ್ರು; ಯಾವಾಗ್ಲೂ ನೆರಳಾಗಿದ್ದ ಒಬ್ಬ ಅಣ್ಣ; ಬಾಲ್ಯದಿಂದಲೇ ಸ್ನೇಹಿತೆ ಆಗಿದ್ದ ಅತ್ತಿಗೆ; ಮತ್ತೆ ವಾಸು ತಮಾಷೆ ಮಾಡ್ತಿದ್ದ ಹಾಗೆ, ಅವ್ರ “ಕಟ್ಟುನಿಟ್ಟಿನ ತಾಯಂದಿರು” ಆಗಿದ್ದರೂ, ಅವ್ರ ಹಾಸ್ಯಕ್ಕೆ ಜೋರಾಗಿ ನಗ್ತಿದ್ದ ಇಬ್ಬರು ತಂಗಿಯರು ಇದ್ರು.

ಮತ್ತೆ ಸಹಜವಾಗಿ, ನಮ್ಮ ಕುಟುಂಬ—ಅವ್ರನ್ನ ತುಂಬ ಸಪೋರ್ಟ್ ಮಾಡೋ ಟೀಮ್ ನಾವಾಗಿದ್ವಿ.

ನೀವು ರಾಜ, ಸೈನಿಕ, ಮತ್ತೆ ಒಬ್ಬ ಒಳ್ಳೆ ಮನುಷ್ಯನಿಗೆ ನೀವೇ ಮಾದರಿ, ವಾಸು. ನೀವು ನಮಗೆ ಸಮೃದ್ಧಿ ತಂದ್ರಿ. ನಮ್ಮಲ್ಲಿರೋ ಮಾನವೀಯತೆಯನ್ನ ನೆನಪು ಮಾಡಿದ್ರಿ.

ಕೇವಲ ನೀವ್ ನೀವಾಗಿರೋ ಮೂಲಕವೇ ಜನರನ್ನ ಉತ್ತಮ ಮಾಡಿದ್ರಿ, ಧನ್ಯವಾದಗಳು.




Friday, October 24, 2025

Vasu

Most of us walk the paths that others have laid out for us. We become part of a charmed life, doing what society expects of us. But some among us live in a way that creates paths for others to follow. Srinivas P.—our beloved Vasu P., or “Soil Vasu”—was one such person. We lost him too soon, on 13 September 2025, leaving behind a deep, speechless kind of pain.



What can I say about Vasu? Personally, he was an absolute joy to be with. He sang songs, told stories, made us laugh with his antics, wiped our tears, brought us snacks, and listened to our woes. He was truly my elder brother. I could go to him with any sorrow. This is the truth. I knew very deeply that if there was one person in the family I could confide in fearlessly, it was with Vasu. 


Once, when I was seven, I fell and scraped my knee. I was bleeding and crying, but he made up a funny song and dance that made me laugh so hard I forgot the pain. That was Vasu — he reached people where they were. There was no pretence or guile in him, just a natural kindness. He had a way with words, and I often confided in him about life, love, and work.


As I was growing up, he was an inspiration. He saw what most of us could not see in a conventional world. He understood the marginalised, the hurt, the wounded — with a spontaneous compassion that few ever achieve. There was a quiet bravery in him, unlike anyone else I knew. He walked his own path to the beat of his own drum.


How else could the second child of two academicians choose a life of such gritty, grounded service? His life was never about comfort — it was about purpose. From early on, he knew he wanted to work for people.


He began his journey with FEDINA, working with marginalised communities — domestic workers, sanitation workers, garment workers, construction workers, and farmers. When FEDINA merged programs with ICRA (Institute for Cultural Research and Action), his passion for farmers came into sharp focus. During this time, he travelled to Senegal, walking the sands of the Sahara, studying how villagers and farmers depended on water and soil — and how their survival ebbed and flowed with nature.


Perhaps it was there that his fascination with soil began.

Over the next decade, he travelled the length and breadth of Karnataka. I once joked, “Is there a single village you haven’t visited?” He laughed and said, “Probably not.” It wasn’t an easy path — researching and advocating for organic farming at a time when few understood its importance. People admired him but also told him to be “practical.” It affected him financially, yes — but never spiritually.


Even as NGOs faced funding cuts and the term soil health meant little to most, he carried on, unwavering. No financial struggle, no discouragement could shake him. His focus was clear, his conviction unbreakable.

In a world rushing ahead with technology, he worked with a broken computer and an old phone — and yet, he changed lives. He wrote songs, made charts, created presentations, and learned to blog — one slow keystroke at a time, often late into the night. When he found out about Facebook, his daily posts about soil brought together so many farming enthusiasts close to him. He became a leader of theirs, of sorts.  His bag was always full of soil samples wrapped in newspaper or plastic. Ask him one question about soil, and he could speak for hours. He was, quite literally, a walking, talking soil soldier.





I used to worry about him. Once, I urged him to get a medical check-up since he’d crossed 55. He smiled and said,

“I’ve shared my songs, my charts, my work — do you think it has value?”
“Yes,” I said.
“Do you think helping farmers matters?”
“Of course.”
“Then as long as there’s even one farmer who isn’t practicing organic farming, I must continue.”

That was his king-like motivation — as long as farmers lived, he had work to do.


He addressed everyone with affection — buddhitaayiguru — always the learner himself. Every birthday or special day, he would send me a message at 5 a.m., overflowing with praise and warmth. Vasu had a natural sense of humour and an irrepressible joy for life. He wanted everyone around him to be well and happy. When my father was in the hospital, he spent afternoons keeping him company — singing songs, making him laugh, bringing comfort through simple cheer. Humour was his life force. No matter what adversities came his way, he faced them with laughter and light.





His son Nandan was his pride and joy — his life force. He would proudly share his music creations with everyone he met.


But Vasu was not alone in his journey. Behind “Soil Vasu” stood a circle of steadfast love — his parents, Smt. G.P. Lakshmi Devi and Prof. G. Padmanabhaiah, whose hands were always on his shoulders; an elder brother who held an umbrella over him constantly; a sister-in-law who was a childhood friend and confidante; and two younger sisters who, as Vasu often joked, were his “strict mothers”, but who laughed uncontrollably at his antics. 


And of course, our family — his loudest cheering camp.

You were a king, a soldier, and the model of a good human being, Vasu.
You enriched us. You reminded us of our humanity.


Thank you for making people better — just by being yourself.

Thursday, August 28, 2025

just

 

I. Secrets

Let’s keep our secrets,
and only share them with our eyes.
And when our eyes grow tired,
let your hands find mine,
and hold what words cannot.


II. Cosmos

The sun, the moon, the sky—
they stayed with me,
as long as your hands
rested in mine.


III. Paradox

No life, no death, in love.
The one for whom I die
is the very one
who gives me life.


IV. Choice

She said,
“I went through childbirth,
so I can accomplish anything now.”

I said,
“I refused the child I wanted,
so I can accomplish
anything hard.”

____________________________________________________________________________________

I refused to give birth
to a child I wanted—
so I can accomplish
anything hard,

she said,
as she hugged
an invisible child.

___________________________________________________________________________________

Monday, August 11, 2025

When Words Weigh More Than We Do

Yet again, asking for a simple cup of coffee turned into something else entirely.

A lady — without hesitation — told me I needed to lose lots of weight, eat better, and take care of my face. As she said it, she reached out and touched my face. Uninvited.

It wasn’t the first time.

Once, a colleague looked at me and announced, “Your face looks lacklustre… kind of dark.”
Another day, she walked in, made a face, and asked, “Do you pull your hair?” referring to my female-pattern baldness.

And then there was the time I entered a room full of people. One colleague laughed, “I knew you were coming!”
“How?” I asked.
“The earth shook when you walked,” she said. And laughed.
Others laughed too.

I remember all of these moments. I don’t want to. But I do.

Maybe these comments weren’t intended to hurt, but they do. They’re triggers. They chip away at self-worth. For those of us who are overweight or obese, like me, it’s easy to feel diminished. We live outside the narrow lines of what society deems “acceptable.” Shame clings to us — sometimes self-inflicted, often gifted by others.

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It’s a Herculean task just to face the mirror, smile, and feel joy. The constant mental tape plays: fat, bald, ugly.

Here’s the thing: we wake up in these bodies. We carry our own weight — literally. We walk our own paths. We live with our disadvantages, some of which others can’t even begin to comprehend. And yet, we show up.

If I were to write my biography based on society’s and loved ones’ criticisms, it would read:

47-year-old, single, dark-skinned, bald, morbidly obese woman with freckles — undesirable, unlovable, forgettable.

That’s the voice the world has given me.
It’s also the voice that echoes in my own head. Costantly.

Every day, I have a choice: to believe it or not. And every day, that choice is a battle.

But here’s the simple truth: I am not worthless. 
I am a survivor of seven years of child sexual abuse.
I am battling food addiction. I am learning to understand my body now, at 47.

Whether I transform my health or not, only time will tell. But until then, the only thing I am committing to is life. Meaning, I am committing to not becoming a victim or a tragedy. Because I am here, to live and love. 

And that matters.

Sunday, July 13, 2025

I’m Going to Be Vulnerable

 I’m going to be vulnerable.

Not poetic.
Not filtered.
Just honest.

I am at my heaviest weight and biggest size.
And it’s not a surprise. It’s the result of many silent choices, many unspoken moments, many meals I didn’t need—but took anyway.

Because I let go.
Because I am a food addict.
And because food doesn’t just sit on my plate—it talks to me.

The Lie That Keeps Me Stuck

The worst thing food says?

“Nothing will happen if you eat this.”

But something does happen. Every time.

A little more guilt. A little more heaviness.
Another notch of self-loathing.
Another promise broken.

Food becomes my comfort, my punishment, my distraction, my silence.

And Then Comes the Fear

There’s something darker behind the eating. Something I don’t always say out loud.

I am scared I will become my mother. Or my aunt.
Women I loved—who struggled with weight, illness, and confinement.
Women whose lives became smaller as their bodies grew heavier, sicker, stuck.

I am terrified that one day, I will not be able to get out of bed.
That I will be bedridden, helpless, dependent.

No. Way.

I will not go down that road.
I will not let food chain me to a future I dread.

Yes, genetics has played a role.
Yes, menopause hasn’t helped.
But I know the truth in my bones: I have helped this sickness too.

Through neglect.
Through fear.
Through numbing myself instead of feeling fully.

I Want to Change Without Shame

I don’t want to change because I hate myself.
I want to change because I want to live.

I don’t want to crash diet or chase size charts.
I want to walk.
To breathe.
To return to myself.

Starting with 20 minutes a day.
Not to punish myself.
But to begin again.
To mark a shift—from silence to movement, from guilt to presence.

Maybe I’ll walk an hour one day.
Maybe I won’t.

But I will show up.

I’m Not a Before or After. I’m a During.

This isn’t a “journey post.”
This is a confession.
This is a commitment.

To myself.
To my future.
To my body, not as a battleground, but as a home I want to return to

If you’ve heard food whisper to you too—
If you’ve feared becoming someone you once cared for—
If you’re carrying the weight of shame and stories—
Know this: You are not alone. And it’s not too late.

Come walk with me. Let’s write a new ending.

Not a good week for women!

This has been a devastating week.

A week that lays bare the brutal truth:
That in parts of our world, being a daughter, being a woman—especially an unmarried one—is still dangerous, and to top that, choosing a path not sanctioned by family is a dangerous one. 

Two lives.
Humaira Asghar and Radhika Yadav.
Both young. Both full of promise.
Both chose to live a work life based on their talent and ability. 
And both punished—for being free.

One died in September 24 months her death was discovered only recently.
The other shot in her own kitchen by the man who raised her.

Their crime? They lived on their own terms. 

Humaira Asghar: A Woman Who Chose Her Own Life—and Was Left to Die Alone

Humaira Asghar was a young Pakistani woman who dared to step into the spotlight. She chose to become an actor—a choice still seen in some parts of society as shameful, as dishonourable, as "too much."

She made her own decisions. She followed her passion. She lived independently.

And for that, she was ostracised.

In September 2024, she seems to have had the last connection with anyone. No one came looking. Her family had already cut her off. When her body was finally found—nine months later, decomposed and alone—her father and brother refused to claim her or give her a proper burial.

It’s still unclear how she died. But what’s painfully clear is this:

She died without her family,

She was buried by strangers

She was ostracised in life and death.

Radhika Yadav: Shot by Her Father for Succeeding

24-year-old Radhika Yadav was a tennis coach, a budding player, a YouTuber—and the pride of many. But not, it seems, of her father.

She supported the family financially. She was strong, skilled, and self-made.

And that threatened him.

When neighbours mocked him—“You live off your daughter?”—his fragile masculinity shattered. Instead of owning his pride in her, he chose violence.

He came home, waited until Radhika was cooking, her back turned, and shot her dead.

A betrayal inside the home.
A punishment for being successful.
A life taken not in the heat of the moment, but with quiet, chilling intent.

This wasn’t just murder. This was honour killing, fed by ego, fuelled by a culture that teaches men that a daughter's light should never outshine their own.

When Women Choose Themselves, They Are Still at Risk

Neither Humaira nor Radhika were “asking for it.”
They were simply being—alive, visible, self-driven.

But in a society where:

  • Independence is read as rebellion,

  • Ambition is seen as arrogance,

  • And success is seen as a threat—
    Women are punished.

Especially if they are unmarried.
Especially if they don’t “belong” to a man—father, husband, or brother.

This Is Not Just Personal. It’s Political.

These deaths aren’t private family tragedies.
They are symptoms of a larger, rotting system.

Where a woman choosing her profession is shameful.
Where a daughter earning money is emasculating.
Where male egos are protected more fiercely than female lives.

Radhika’s death was fast and loud.
Humaira’s was silent and slow.
But both were surrounded by the same cruelty:
A refusal to let women live on their own terms.

We Must Speak Their Names

Humaira Asghar.
Radhika Yadav.

Friday, July 11, 2025

long lost friend news

When i saw thw AIR India passenger's list..i saw your name..but did not really think of you. How could i... we met last nearly 10 years ago...But to hear it was you...what was sad ..is sadder...cannot stop thinking of what the kids.. and Dak! Rest, RH! 


Friday, July 4, 2025

...and just like that

And just like that
I saw the truth in the moment
gone were the summer days,
i wrote poems of love 
gone were the songs 
gone was the yearning
my heart filled 
with unspoken emotion
their eyes - walls 
you can do your best
yet, it is only you
who holds your hand 

only that!

Review - Sharmishte

Many years ago, may be in the year 2000, I had the blessed opportunity to work with Dr Umashree. What an actor. She played Sharmishte, and I was Chitralekhe in Karnad ji's Yayati. We travelled around Karnataka performing the play. It was a great class on prepping for a show, being a star. I was in awe. 

Sankula covered it. I was surprised to be on the cover page. Pappa bought nearly 10 copies to send to people. 







We had travelled all around Karnataka especially North Karnataka in a small van, and we had to bunk in dorms, were invited by the Panchayat president and met the heads of the company theatre. One night, Umashree avaru took me to watch a company play. Company plays are done by local touring groups, have melodramatic stories lines and very exaggerated in form. 

The lead usually dresses as a successful film star, and this day he was dressed as Dr Rajkumar. The play began at baout 10 pm and went on till about 1 am. It was about a jilted love story. The backdrops are on canvas and painted, and they scroll up and down to show scene changes. 

Kannada Company Natak full comedy

Company nataka sets are usually huge painted backdrops. 

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I was able to see and meet the actors after the play, thanks to Umashree ji. She had almost become a care taker of mine, in that time. She was a very kind, and helpful person. Even later, when I worked with her, the feeling was the same. 

So, I was really happy to see her on stage. I did not meet her this time as she was back stage, and an actor gets mobbed when they exit, and I did not want to be a part of that mob. 

Akshara V, Daksha, Arun Murthy and I stood at the Rajatadri palace as she exited the building, and it was just mobbed. This is all because of Dr Umashree. She is so special as an actor. 

and now we come to Sharmishte
The daughter of a Rakshasa king, beautiful, kind, haunting, faithful - who befriends Devyani - the proud, demanding daughter of Shukracharya. Sharmishte bears many insults from Devyani, silently, humourously and in one weak moment retaliates. This becomes her undoing. She is now forever to be a slave - a princess slave to Devyani - who is married off to Yayati. 

Yayati has children with Devyani, but he also falls in love with Sharmishte, and marries her in secret, and has 3 children with her. Devyani who does not know who the father of Sharmishte's children are, continues to insult her. One day when she finds out, she goes to her father - Shukracharya - who curses Yayati with old age, and loss of youth. 

Yayati pleads with Shukracharya to release him of this curse, and he only relents to say if he can get any of his sons to exchange his age with them, then he can be youthful. 

His sons with Devyani dont want that life. But his son with Sharmishte exchanges his life and youth with his father. Puru, who is newely married to Chiralekhe gives his youth to his father. Chitralekhe who sees this takes her life. 

Yayati comes to realise his folly and chooses to go to vanaparasta. 
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This rendition of the play was a solo performance by Dr Umashree. While it was a thrill to see her, I did not like the play. The treatment was weak at best. The ending was dismal. It was a directorial thing. How could Sharmishte in the end accept to go with Devyani to the forest to live with Yayati. Sharmiste seems to have lost her spine, he inner strength. 

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It was clear that in the directorial and dramaturgy team there was no woman involved, who could say anything to affect and impact the plot. 

But, hey, I got to see Dr. Umashree on stage - even though I hoped for better. 


Tuesday, July 1, 2025

Sunday at the theatre - 1









With Gundanna and Gauri Dattu at Ranga Shankara. 


The enlightened Badiger Sir!