I cannot tell you how hard it is to go outside for shopping. It makes me cry. I am anxious and just want to cry, I want to come back home and hide and cry, I feel the safest inside my house and I know this makes me sound cray.. but I feel so anxious just being out.
It may feel like I am doing the tasks needed, but I am hurrying - in the purchase, in the rejection, in the moving on from shop to shop. I just want to go from there. They are regular people, but I feel if I stand there they are going to see me, and my anxiety demon inside my head. I need to run. I feel like I will explode, and be uncontrolled. I am happiest inside my house.
But the medicine is in going out. By myself.
Oh!
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